On Discoveries One Makes At Barbeques...
apparently i have very "violent tendencies"
when handed both a knife and a piece of steak.
in my defence:
well... THE STEAK WAS IRRITATING LAHH!
And the knife was PLASTIC!
First post of the year six days after it starts...
Kath, you horrendous procrastinator!
This year's resolution:
BLOG MORE
(i can hear dawn cheering...)
BUT! as we all know,
resolutions are meant to be broken!
So, just don't count on me posting much.
Check here, say... once a month? :P
It's not like i'll have much time to blog much anyway.
from what everyone's been saying,
life's going to be hectic from here on.
i'm just hoping somehow i'll be able to fit riding into the equation
and we're not even talking twice a week! /:
i suppose there has been some good though,
CJ's been... a real eyeopener, if anything.
It's only been three days and i've already met
so many different people i wouldn't ordinarily meet.
But somehow, it feels weird.
True blue IJ for a whole long decade,
then just... leaving that all behind you.
Being thrust into a comepletely new, near-alien environment
only sparsely peppered with familliar faces.
Being split up from many old friends
and feeling the distance between you just widen with each passing day.
and not being able to bridge the gap
because, you just simply have no time.
I don't see how this is fair.
How friendships and memories that precious
should be given up just like that
when you move on.
Somehow, now, it just doesn't seem possible to keep
everything of the old and still continue letting the new come rolling in.
Very frankly, i've realised, i don't like this change.
I just don't feel the optimism i've always felt
with every other new experience.
In this case, it somehow feels more like
the "new" are barging into what used to be MY LIFE.
Something i used to feel in charge and in control over.
I'm still me.
and yet... things have changed,
so inevitably, i suppose i'll change as well.
change never did used to scare me.
it doesn't make any sense that i should be scared of it now.
it just... doesn't.
I don't even know why i'm thinking like that anymore.
i'm not supposed to be some emo kid.
and this post was suppose to be short.
Excuse myself from blogging for the next zillion years,
and i find myself suddenly reflecting and musing and mulling
over everything that's happened so far this year.
and i just realised
it's only been SIX DAYS since oh-eight started!
here's the hope,
maybe bonanza- will see some more daylight this year than last...
'kath
7:52 PM
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